CHRISTIAN WOMEN IN MINISTRY LEADERSHIP:
EVERYONE COMES TO YOU.
WHO DO YOU GO TO?
Join this free 2-day live experience for women in pastoral or ministry leadership who have spent years carrying everyone else's burdens, and wondering where to bring their own.
Thursday, July 9th and Friday, July 10th at 3 PM PST/6 PM EST
If you are ready to examine your story, discern the patterns beneath your depletion, and finally encounter the Lord in the wilderness your position has required you to navigate alone,
this is your invitation.
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Thursday, July 9th and Friday, July 10th at 3 PM PST/6 PM EST
Join me for a free, 2-day guided live experience where your calling is not in question, but the weight you have been carrying alone finally has a name, and you begin to understand why the same patterns keep surfacing no matter how faithful you have been.
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If you have spent years faithfully serving, studying, and showing up for everyone around you, but the patterns in your own interior life remain unwitnessed
this is your invitation to finally tend to what has gone untended.
No Replay Available.
Hello, I’m Paris.
A trauma-informed spiritual director who works with women in pastoral and ministry leadership navigating the tension between the calling they have given everything to, and the interior life that has gone without witness.
I care deeply about creating spaces where the woman who tends everyone else finally has somewhere to be tended to herself.
I spent years in the Word, in consistent prayer, in Biblical counseling training and certification, doing everything I had been taught a faithful woman in ministry should do.
And yet the Lord led me, not away from ministry, but inward toward the very thing I had never allowed anyone to offer me: the kind of care I had spent years learning to give everyone else.
Some of what surfaced did not seem significant on the surface, but left me overwhelmed, shut down, or secretly questioning what was happening inside me spiritually, even as I continued to hold space for the women around me with confidence.
This is me, I want to understand what's happening inside
And what I realized is this:
You can love God deeply, be rooted in truth, and have given years of faithful service to His people…
AND still find yourself carrying a weight you cannot name, returning to the same patterns you cannot explain, and privately wondering why nothing you know seems to reach the places inside you that are still unresolved.
Not because something is wrong with your faith.
But because there are parts of your story
that have never been witnessed, and a burden your position has never allowed you to set down.
You have been calling it a faith issue, but that may not be all that’s happening.
Because if it were simply a matter of praying more or trusting harder, this would have changed by now. You have been faithful. You have done the work. And still, something is not resolving the way it should.
Instead, it feels like:
→ lying in bed replaying a conversation from a counseling session, a staff meeting, or a Sunday morning exchange that you cannot seem to let go of
→ hearing your own tone shift mid-sentence with someone you love and thinking, "why am I reacting like this, of all people"
→ sitting in quiet time, Bible open, and still feeling a distance from the Lord that your theology tells you should not be there
→ shutting down in private the way you would never allow yourself to in public, and not fully understanding why the gap between those two versions of you keeps widening
And the part no one in ministry says out loud?
You are doing everything you have been told to do.
Praying.
Returning to scripture.
Staying grounded in your calling.
But your chest still feels tight, your thoughts keep looping, and the same responses keep surfacing, just with different people and different circumstances.
Different conversation.
Same shutdown.
Same spiral.
And you are the one who is 'supposed' to know better.
So you find yourself asking questions you would never say from a to your bible study group or from the pulpit:
"Why does this keep happening to me?"
"What is wrong with me spiritually?"
"Why can I hold space for everyone else's suffering but cannot seem to reconcile the Lord's promises with my own daily experience?"
Here is what is actually true: these are not random reactions, and they are not evidence of weak faith.
They are learned patterns, formed in moments you were never given the tools to process, which is precisely why trying harder has not changed them, and why no amount of additional ministry training has reached them either.
DAY 1:
Where Have You Come From?
Finally understand why you keep responding the way you do, even after years of faithful ministry, theological training, and genuine love for the Lord.
We will uncover the patterns, grief, and protective responses that were formed long before you stepped into your calling, so you can see why certain moments still reach you so deeply, and stop measuring your spiritual maturity by reactions you were never taught how to understand.
DAY 2:
Where Are You Going?
Learn how to walk with God inside your story, rather than continuing to lead others through theirs while quietly fleeing from your own.
You will begin to respond differently in real time, not by trying harder or knowing more, but by finally understanding what has been driving your reactions all along, and what it looks like to let the Lord tend to that with you.
is a 2-day guided live experience designed to help women in ministry finally understand what has been driving the patterns beneath their depletion:
→ why your reactions in private feel disproportionate to the moment in front of you, even when you know better
→ why conversations from Sunday's service, a difficult elder meeting, or a late-night pastoral call are still running in your mind days later
→ why your connection with the Lord can feel intimate and grounded in one season and strangely distant in the next, regardless of how faithfully you have maintained the disciplines
This is not surface-level encouragement.
and it is not another opportunity to learn more information you already know how to teach. It is not a space where what you are carrying will be minimized, spiritualized away, or handed back to you with a scripture and a smile.
This is where you slow down, perhaps for the first time in your ministry life, long enough to actually see what has been driving your responses, instead of questioning your own spiritual maturity every time they surface.
Because once you can see what is actually happening beneath the pattern,
you stop spiraling you stop turning your reactions into evidence of something broken in you.
you stop asking the question that has followed
you through years of faithful service: "What is wrong with me?"
And things begin, for the first time, to make sense. For many women in ministry, this is the first time they ever do.
And He said, “Hagar, servant of Sarai, where have you come from and where are you going?” She said, “I am fleeing from my mistress Sarai.”
Genesis 16:8
What women experience in this space
But what if…
this is not about trying harder, and never was? What if what has gone unresolved has gone unresolved not because of a deficit in your faith, but because there are parts of your story that have never been fully seen, even by you?
The grief you moved past because the congregation needed you steady. The moments that unknowingly shaped the way you lead, the way you love, and the way you protect yourself, without you ever having the space to examine them. The vows you made without realizing you were making them:
"I will never allow myself to be that vulnerable again."
"I have to hold this together, because if I do not, everything falls apart."
"There is no one in my world I can trust with this."
And instead of trying to fix what is there, manage it more skillfully, or pray it into silence, what if you had a space to finally slow down, to listen without an agenda, and to gently uncover what is actually present in your own interior life, with the Lord as your witness and your guide?
Because what He is doing in you has never been about repair in the way ministry culture tends to mean it.
It has been about presence. About being with you in the parts of your story you have carried alone, in the places where nothing feels clear yet, where the ache has no clean name and the resolution has not yet arrived.
The same God who saw Hagar in the wilderness who met her not after her suffering had resolved but directly inside of it...
sees you here, too.
In the middle of it. Before anything has been figured out.
And this is where everything begins to shift.
Thursday, July 9th and Friday, July 10th at 3 PM PST/6 PM EST
No Replay Available.
At the core, reconciliation means this:
What was once whole,
doesn’t feel that way anymore.
But it can be restored.
Not as a theological proposition you already believe, but as a lived reality in your actual story, in the specific places where the fracture lives.
And this is what God is doing through Jesus:
restoring what has been broken,
Not in the abstract.
Not in the language of sermons you have preached or teachings you have delivered, but in real lives, in real stories, in the interior places of real women who have spent years tending everyone else's restoration while quietly wondering when it would come for them.
Including yours.
And the invitation?
The invitation is not to learn something new about God. It is to begin noticing where He is already at work in the story you have been carrying, and to learn, perhaps for the first time in a long time, what it feels like to walk with Him there as someone who is being tended to rather than someone doing the tending.
Is not:
another Bible study,
where you leave with more notes… but the same reactions
a mindset workshop,
that teaches you what to think, while your body still reacts the same way
more information,
to try to apply when you already feel overwhelmed
or quick answers,
that never actually reach what’s underneath
It is a guided experience:
where your story is slowed down,
so you can finally notice what has been there all along
your themes of harm and goodness are gently uncovered, not judged, rushed, or “fixed”
and God meets you—
right in the middle of what you have been carrying
not past it
not around it
…but within it
The Lord does not want to use you.
He wants to
tend to you.
He is not waiting on the other side of your depletion for you to recover, regroup, and return to the work. He sees you right now, in the car between appointments, in the quiet after Sunday when everyone has gone home and you are still holding what was brought to you. He is not distant from your wilderness. He has never been. He is in it with you, the same way He was in it with Hagar before she had any reason to believe someone had noticed her there.
God does not merely call women in ministry to care for others.
He delights in caring for them. In tending to them.
In being near to them not as the One who commissioned their work, but as the One who sees what that work has cost them.
What Seen in the Wilderness is built to create is a space where He can finally do that, not in your role, not in your function, not in what you are able to offer anyone else, but in you.
What women experience in this space
Wanda
Health & Wellness Coach Navigating Burnout
“Paris creates a Spirit-led space where you are deeply seen and safely held. Not rushed. Not fixed. Just met.”
Tabitha
Graduate Student Navigating Faith & Personal Growth
“Paris brings lived wisdom, not just guidance. She meets you exactly where you are, without rushing what needs time.”
Abigail
Ministry Leader Walking Through Personal Healing
“There was room to be silent, to process, and to feel. I wasn’t pushed, I was accompanied.”
If you have been trying to move forward, but something keeps pulling you back, this is where we begin to understand why
this is your invitation to do this differently.
Not with more answers to memorize
But with clarity,
and the Holy Spirit.
After two days together, some women want to stay. Refuge is where that happens.
Thursday, July 9th & Friday, July 10th
at 3 PM PST/6 PM EST
Join Seen in the Wilderness
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